Despite the new parts my baby has as of yesterday, I'm nervous. I wish that little heartbeat could have been just 3 beats higher. I read a study that from 6.3-7 weeks, a heartbeat of 110-119 was "borderline" and has a higher chance of miscarriage. It's weird because I read in plenty of places that 110+ is OK for right now, or that the heartbeat should go from 103-126 during this week. At the "normal" rate my baby would've been at 123 by the end of the week which is almost exactly on track. But I'm scared. I love this little thing so much. I called my nurse yesterday and told her what I'd read and that I was so scared because I wanted things to work out so badly. She told me to be careful what I read, and said that the ultrasound was perfect. She said the baby is measuring exactly on track and there's no reason to worry. I appreciate hearing that, but I want an ultrasound NOW, not the Tuesday after next. I want to know that its little heart is beating faster now as it should be.
Despite the doctor and nurse telling me everything was fine, I just can't shake the worry. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next week and a half. Lots of prayer I suppose.
If you're listening, little one, we love you so, SO much. Please stay strong and healthy. We know you can do it. You're such a strong baby and we know you can keep growing for us. We love you so much.
Thanks for your comment and virtual hug--I really appreciate it! I'm sorry you're worried/nervous, though I think it's very understandable. I'm sure your doctor and nurse are right--that everything is fine--but I'll definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope this next week and a half flies by for you. (Keep growing, chicky! You can do it!)
ReplyDeleteI know it is very hard, but try not to worry. Seeing that little heart beat pumping away is a huge and fantastic step. You just have to trust that your little chicky is growing just like it should be. Sending grow baby, grow vibes to your LO! :)
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