AF should be arriving any minute. I figured that was the case as my temperature dropped like crazy yesterday. It was like looking at the steep slope of Everest. I told myself I would test if my temp rose again today, and it went from 97.5 to 97.8, plus I had some serious pains in the breast area. It was negative, which I expected, and at 13DPO it's pretty certain. I hate telling Andy about BFNs because he lives by "you're not out until the witch shows". I love his optimism. I know that this stuff does get to him though. He's never completely excited about things like the new cycle and I know it's because he's stressed and just wants it to work so badly. We had a huge fight this weekend and delved into a very dark place but came out on top. We've been getting so stressed about TTC and health issues and money (although I found out WHILE typing this that Andy got a new job!) but we identified some issues we weren't handling correctly and we're on the same page about how to proceed. We're ready to hold hands and make this journey and tackle the problems that stand in the way. I'm so glad to have him to go through all of this with. He's seriously my foundation. He holds me up and is the sole source of a lot of my stability. He's been asking me about my temps every day. Every morning he says "so what's the status today" lol. It's so cute that he's involved... especially since I couldn't say the word "period" without him cringing until recently.

I really hope the witch does show today because if not she'll make it much more difficult to have any fun in Ocean City Friday. Plus if it comes Wednesday we can't leave until after bloodwork and ultrasound since Friday would be CD3. These weird crampy feelings the last three days have been such a tease. I know a consistent luteal phase is a lot to ask for, aunt flow, but please!? 

It's weird having to plan everything around the IUI schedule. I'm going to NC over July 4th weekend and my mom and I were trying to plan out when the IUI would likely be lol. Fortunately, even if AF comes today, and I O on my earliest O date from previous months (CD16), I would still get the +OPK on Monday the 5th to come in the 6th and I'll be home. Whew. I'm pumped for this IUI and I hope the numbers are all good but it's the first one so it's hard to say. So for now... come on, witch!!!



It looks like I'll be getting a lot of paperwork in the mail because they authorize each thing individually. The good news is I just got my CD3 stuff in the mail with authorization. I need to call the financial person for IUI auth, too. I'm glad I have insurance. Since this is a natural cycle it's going to run me about $225 out of pocket. Next month with the extra ultrasound and HCG injection it'll be about $425 so that's tough. I know a lot of people pay a lot more, but coming up with $425 out of pocket each month is hard, so we'll be stuck at home until we get our BFP. The third cycle will probably be the same and then we'll do the HSG and depending on Andy's numbers move onto IVF. That should be around the end of September/beginning of October, but I'm PRAYING that we conceive on one of these IUIs. Maybe she'll give me clomid for the third one if we haven't had success. Or we'll do the HSG and one more with clomid if the numbers are good. Either way, I'm thankful for the IF coverage. We'd never be able to afford $850 a month out of pocket and as it is have to budget very hard and we can't do much that's fun over the next few months. It'll be SO WORTH IT when I finally look at that damn pee stick and see TWO pink lines instead of one!!!!