Random Thoughts

E decided that she was being too easy on us with the whole sleeping thing, and so last night she just... stopped. It was awful, and I couldn't get her down for more than 20 minutes during the day, either. Can you say sleep deprived!? She got really fussy in the afternoon, so I just had to hold her until A came home. He took her as soon as he got in so I got to go upstairs and nap in my bed! It was awesome. Unfortunately E went batshit and cried for what seemed like an entire hour, and I couldn't sleep through it, so my nap was cut short. I think she's going through a growth spurt because she ended up taking 4oz of formula for A, which is very strange for her. I also tried a swaddle me, and it fit her. It's kind of sad because it was way too big when we brought her home and it fits now. She's getting so big (and this definitely said "getting so bed" until I corrected it. Guess where my mind is...). She also seems to really like it, and is now fast asleep. I think she might have some mild reflux, so I'm going to talk to the pedi about it on Tuesday. Days like today are uncommon. Sometimes she gets a bit fussier in the afternoon, but she doesn't generally cry, and I hate that she's in pain if it really is reflux.

It's funny that even when she's screaming and frustrating the heck out of me, I look at her face and just crack (corrected from crap. Holy awful sleep deprived typing skills) up because she's so cute and I just love her so much. I know that eventually she'll get into a better sleeping pattern, and I'm very fortunate she's not a baby that cries all the time. We got super lucky with her. I'm definitely glad I'm not going back to work the week after next though. If I'd only taken 6 weeks I'd have to, and there is no way I could function at work after nights like last night. I'm glad these days have been few and far between so far.

I'm also glad A is such a help. I take care of E at night since he's working all day, but he comes home and takes her so I can eat, shower, etc. And he watches her a lot on his days off so I can sleep. I feel like we have a great partnership going in raising our baby and it's an awesome feeling. I love my husband!

Last night I took E out to have dinner with my parents. She was awesome as usual, and didn't fuss until we were leaving. Then I went to my friend Michelle's house, and a bunch of my friends were there. I fed E and a few of my friends held her. She was being so good. She did have a giant poop, which parlayed itself into a weird conversation. One of my friends was talking about how E was really cute, and the other friend said he didn't really get it. So I said "Wait, you have to think she's cute!" and he said "I just don't understand the baby thing". Well his wife wants kids soon, so the other friend (who has 2 kids) was like "well are you sure you are ready to have kids then?" and he basically said no, but he has to because his wife wants them. About that time, E spit up a little bit. My burp cloth was in a different room, so I just wiped it off with my shirt. Non-baby friend said he couldn't get down with the bodily fluids, and I said "Uhm.. this is nothing. You do realize she just pooped and peed on me while I was changing her?". He was so grossed out it was ridiculous. And not in a normal way. Very much in a "OMG I never want to do that" sort of way.

I also got a sneak peak at the blanket Michelle is making E. It's AWESOME. It's an underwater theme, so the background is blue, and it's got seaweed and sea creatures sewn on. It's so cool.

Sunday we're taking her out again because my mom is having a meet the baby party. Not a gift party, just something for the relatives I don't get to see often. I have two aunts that don't drive and wouldn't get to see her that are coming up for it, and they're going to get a kick out of it. Plus I have an aunt and uncle that struggled for many, many years with infertility. She had 2 late term losses, and needed IUI to conceive those babies. Eventually they gave up because it was too hard. I know everyone has a story like this, but they actually did conceive after that and the baby is OK (and now 17 years old! WTF?). Then a month after his birth they conceived naturally again!! I feel like we have a pretty special bond. She went through much more than I did, but it's still special to have someone who understands. Plus they had two boys, and his brother had two boys, so I'm the only girl she's gotten to really be around, and.. well, obviously it's been a while, so she'll get a kick out of E.

I also need to write, just because I'm pissed off, that not 1 single person that's not related to E has come to see us at home. Not 1. No friends at all. It's pretty effed up. We had people come to the hospital, but I've been home a month. I'm pissed.

So because I'm writing during a nap and trying to get a lot in, this journal isn't particularly well written and is probably pretty boring. But, I had stuff to get out. Now it's time to get back to trying to get some sleep. It's tough having a teeny baby, but my goodness is she amazing. This little girl is just the best thing ever.

She looks like a totally different baby in this picture. Her hair's blonde in the light and her eyes are this gorgeous gray color. I hope they stay that color. A's sister has gray eyes. Still weird, though. She's just so perfect.